shower
1. holds the promise of rejuvenation, that somehow - things become as clear as the tiny soap bubbles which don't disappear fast enough
2. but when I turn on the tap, the water just hits the bottom of my feet, the thousands of nerves there are screaming for me to move
3. and I tell myself I should stay on because the coldness in the air is going to disappear once the heater gets going
4. it just leaves me shivering, more conscious than ever, lacking any clarity and cold
