East is where you go

Today is one of those - leave me alone no I do not want to explain to you why I am angst I just am live with it ok I'll get over myself tomorrow - days. Everything is just extremely underwhelming.

*My entire furuba collection is in Chinese and it still gave me so many feels, the author was amazing, but even that is underwhelming now because and I am just. meh. m e h.

Not The Type

"Woman, you were born to build."

Well I am tired, of taking your advice, of deciding how exactly it is I am supposed to piece this 5000 piece puzzle without any semblance of a guide. I cannot tell if this is a ship, or a jungle or just a white room. And I find myself breaking the glass walls I think I keep building and admiring the raspberries that drip down my hands, take a step back then continue to forge some kind of barricade with melting plastic. I'm still not doing it right, you say. Maybe this is all a cheap thrill for you, a box of odd ends and corners you couldn't fit into your masterpiece. 

Metal blob

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